For them.

Dear Random Bloggers,

You don't know me. And I can pretty much guarantee that we will never meet. But I just wanted to thank you for having a blog. And not making it private. And for letting me become a part of your world for a few short minutes. I just happened across your blogs in my everyday wanderings of the worldwide web. I was only looking for something to read about that would take my mind off of the clock that ticks so slowly and reminds me that there are plenty of minutes left before I can go home. BUT for a few short minutes, I stumble across your world. A world that seems out of a fairy tale. A world that I long to be a part of for even a short space of time.

I envy your lives sometimes. You all have incredible stories to tell and captivate me with the minute details that make it feel so intimate. The courage and faith and patience and love and firm hope I read in your words is marvelous to read about.

I envy your trials - even the pain that comes from them. The lessons you learned from them and lived to blog about are awe-inspiring. You say that they were so difficult, yet you made it through them with such grace and poise and elegance. I know that maybe I'm not seeing the whole picture, but the glimpses that I do catch take away my breath and make me wish I was stronger like you.

I want to have the same kind of happiness that you have. The babies being born, the myriad of memories, the holiday celebrations, the school performances, the vacations, the moments where you have tender mercies and hopeful revelations. Oh please, take me into your world for two seconds. School and work seem oh so dull and not worth blogging about. There are millions of people around me saying the same thing. "School is hard, work is tough, not enough hours in the day." All I want is to have an adventure. And you give me that while I can't have it on my own - by letting me look through your eyes.

May you continue to have wonderful birthdays and beautiful memories so that I can continue to grow from seeing how you go through your world. You make me want to live better, be better. And I owe you tremendous thanks for that. I am excited to have adventures of my own someday. And if we do meet, can we trade stories?!

Graciously,

The girl you don't know and probably never will.

Oh to know...

Hands down most valuable thing I've learned in my 4 years of college? That the more I learn, the more I realize I have yet to learn.

I guess we all really should be life-long learners.

And I also need to have better study habits. Like maybe actually taking notes in history instead of blogging. But Señor Brown is just oh so blah. No offense to him, of course. I just cannot pay attention today. So blogging it is.

- Posted from iPhone

oh the places you'll go.

This is where I wish I was today:

It would be nice to be done with school and have the money to travel the world and see fantastic places.

Oh, paper,
please write yourself so that I can rid myself of the stress you are causing me. In the short space of three hours I will turn you in. So, can you please just get done on your own in the meantime?
gracias, xie xie, merci beaucoup

wishful thinking?

Wow. I really want a sewing machine. My crafty side has been suppressed for way too long. I am just dying to get my hands on some material and make something pretty.

And yet, I know I wouldn't put it to the good use it truly would deserve. (kind of like my guitar. still in the closet. poor thing.)

I guess I will just have to wait for forever to get one. Probably a good thing anyways, because there are papers and tests that come before any fun projects.

Which means, in my case, that all the grand ideas in my head will just have to stay there for a few more years.

I would love to make something like this:

(taken from here)

this is where i want to be right now.

instead of sitting at work and doing homework and studying for 3 tests.

maybe if i close my eyes and pretend to be warm, it will seem more real.

So we went shopping yesterday. And spent A LOT of money. (Not as much as last weekend though! But still it was a lot.) And after thinking about everything we bought, I realized I have this weird shopping habit. I will walk ALL over the store looking at things and grabbing them if they catch my eye. And then I go try things on, and stick to my rule of only buying things that I LOVE. Well, guess what I noticed? I tend to love and buy the first thing that I pick up in a store.
Doesn't matter what store it is, or what type of item it is, that is usually what I end up buying. And usually, due to my lack of funds, that is the only thing I buy on that day.

So does that mean I should just automatically buy the first thing I pick up and not waste the rest of my time browsing the entire store? Maybe.







This was our big purchase last week. NOT the first thing I picked up. But it was one of the first. And I still sit and stare at it not believing that it is really mine to keep.


- Posted from iPhone

Say a little prayer for me.

Well. I took the leap of faith and ordered my dress today. (THE dress.) I REALLY hope this works out. Everything has been falling into place so perfectly, I am just waiting for SOMETHING to go wrong--- and I'm really scared that this is going to be where it does.

Oh boy I'm scared.
Oh boy.
Oh boy.
Oh boy.




- Posted from iPhone

one ring, one knee, one question.

Remember this post? Turns out I need to rewrite the ending. Apparently fairy tales do come true. And somehow it is never how you think. And little did I know, what I wrote then as a silly story ended up to be me writing the future. If I may be so bold as to quote myself:

"together they would take steps into the future knowing that someday everything would all work out - and that even through the fighting and arguing and possible manipulation, there would always be laughter and charm and love."

Yes. Eerily creepy. And yet I predicted the future? Kinda weird. I'll have to do the rewrite later once I have time to stop and breathe.



In short, (and by short, I mean the condensed concise version) here is the story of what happened a little more than a week ago:

Basically, it was our first "date" all over again. (It was before we were actually dating, but we think this counts because we kissed that night and that is how it all began.) It is one of our favorite days ever, so I think it is perfect that we did the same things that night too.

Red Robin, Sammy's pieshakes and Deer Creek. Over summer, it went wakeboarding at Deer Creek, dinner at Red Robin, movie, pieshakes at Sammy's. And it was the same thing that night in a slightly different order except you can't really go wakeboarding right now because of 8 inches of ice on the lake.

I thought it was just going to be our 'official' celebration of 6 months. So when we started going to all the same places, I just thought we were reminiscing - same place for dinner, same place for dessert. Then we went up to Deer Creek and were sledding and running around and playing on the ice all by ourselves under this incredible night sky. Huge bright full moon and everything. I didn't think he had a ring because of what he'd been telling me for awhile, so when he did actually pull it out when we were standing on ice, I was shocked. I actually said no at first because I was so surprised.

Anyways, in exactly 3 months from today, we are getting married!! MAY 8th. In Bountiful. That seems so far away and yet there is so much we have to do in 3 months. School mostly. And hopefully everything else falls into place!

I still can't really wrap my head around the fact that I kinda predicted the future. I just think it's funny. But I am glad I did. :)

Kinsey and Jenny, this one is for you :) :)

We bought a real ring this weekend!!!! I don't have it yet cause it's not ready but this is basically what it looks like:

I LOVE it.

and I was kind of sad I didn't get to leave the shop with it on my finger. So I guess the fake one will be retired sometime after Thursday! Even though this one is so pretty too!

We got SOOOOO much done this weekend. Everything "time critical". Which takes off so much stress from me. Hallelujah! Now back to focusing on school stuff. I will add more later. I have to give up the computer now. But since you asked, I figured you deserved this.

So I've been working on this other post that I can't seem to find the time to finally finish. You'll realize which one when I actually post it. But I just have a couple thoughts I would like to throw out into the world wide web.

1) I've decided I'm spoiled. Not in the "spoiled-rotten, get-whatever-I-want" sense. But I have so much nice stuff. I own a Land Rover, my fiance bought me an IPHONE, I have a job that lets me work whenever I want - or not work whenever I don't want; I live in a really nice condo that has some really nice amenities, I have a gorgeous ring on my finger. And I'm spoiled. Slash ungrateful.

2) I'm in the slump of school right now. My motivation level = (-10). I have zero desire to accomplish anything. I'm in a semester of taking classes that I need in order to graduate, but all of which I dislike: nutrition, stats, history, chemistry, psychology, physics. So, someone inspire me to keep going please? I can't do it by myself.

3) I went to the gym again this morning. Yay! (after taking a 4 day break - a break which makes me feel even more unhealthy than not going in the first place does..... and I just reread that sentence. I hope it makes sense.) But, I didn't run as far as I was going to originally. And now I'm eating gummi bears? Nice trade-off, right? Less running=more gummi bears. Except it shouldn't.

4) I'm getting out of Provo this weekend (after finishing cleaning checks)! I'm excited. It's not even for any really special reason. In fact, it's more like a personal business trip. But that doesn't stop the excitement! BYU doesn't have enough holidays and I don't think they realize that I need a mental health day about, oh maybe every 15 school days. I'm a full supporter (okay, more like 85%) of the idea that we go to school 4 days a week and have a 3 day weekend. That sounds perfect right now. :)

5) I am craving a coke. Which normally never happens. It's not usually something I crave. Pickles, yes. Cottage cheese, sometimes. Chocolate, fairly often. Coke? Never. But then, I watched this:




And it made me happy! Now I want to go do nice things for other people. And I want a coke.


6) And I have an awesome list of really un-awesome things that need to get done. So, time to focus? Actually it's more like time for staff meeting. And it was my turn to bring treats!