one ring, one knee, one question.

Remember this post? Turns out I need to rewrite the ending. Apparently fairy tales do come true. And somehow it is never how you think. And little did I know, what I wrote then as a silly story ended up to be me writing the future. If I may be so bold as to quote myself:

"together they would take steps into the future knowing that someday everything would all work out - and that even through the fighting and arguing and possible manipulation, there would always be laughter and charm and love."

Yes. Eerily creepy. And yet I predicted the future? Kinda weird. I'll have to do the rewrite later once I have time to stop and breathe.



In short, (and by short, I mean the condensed concise version) here is the story of what happened a little more than a week ago:

Basically, it was our first "date" all over again. (It was before we were actually dating, but we think this counts because we kissed that night and that is how it all began.) It is one of our favorite days ever, so I think it is perfect that we did the same things that night too.

Red Robin, Sammy's pieshakes and Deer Creek. Over summer, it went wakeboarding at Deer Creek, dinner at Red Robin, movie, pieshakes at Sammy's. And it was the same thing that night in a slightly different order except you can't really go wakeboarding right now because of 8 inches of ice on the lake.

I thought it was just going to be our 'official' celebration of 6 months. So when we started going to all the same places, I just thought we were reminiscing - same place for dinner, same place for dessert. Then we went up to Deer Creek and were sledding and running around and playing on the ice all by ourselves under this incredible night sky. Huge bright full moon and everything. I didn't think he had a ring because of what he'd been telling me for awhile, so when he did actually pull it out when we were standing on ice, I was shocked. I actually said no at first because I was so surprised.

Anyways, in exactly 3 months from today, we are getting married!! MAY 8th. In Bountiful. That seems so far away and yet there is so much we have to do in 3 months. School mostly. And hopefully everything else falls into place!

I still can't really wrap my head around the fact that I kinda predicted the future. I just think it's funny. But I am glad I did. :)

Kinsey and Jenny, this one is for you :) :)

We bought a real ring this weekend!!!! I don't have it yet cause it's not ready but this is basically what it looks like:

I LOVE it.

and I was kind of sad I didn't get to leave the shop with it on my finger. So I guess the fake one will be retired sometime after Thursday! Even though this one is so pretty too!

We got SOOOOO much done this weekend. Everything "time critical". Which takes off so much stress from me. Hallelujah! Now back to focusing on school stuff. I will add more later. I have to give up the computer now. But since you asked, I figured you deserved this.

So I've been working on this other post that I can't seem to find the time to finally finish. You'll realize which one when I actually post it. But I just have a couple thoughts I would like to throw out into the world wide web.

1) I've decided I'm spoiled. Not in the "spoiled-rotten, get-whatever-I-want" sense. But I have so much nice stuff. I own a Land Rover, my fiance bought me an IPHONE, I have a job that lets me work whenever I want - or not work whenever I don't want; I live in a really nice condo that has some really nice amenities, I have a gorgeous ring on my finger. And I'm spoiled. Slash ungrateful.

2) I'm in the slump of school right now. My motivation level = (-10). I have zero desire to accomplish anything. I'm in a semester of taking classes that I need in order to graduate, but all of which I dislike: nutrition, stats, history, chemistry, psychology, physics. So, someone inspire me to keep going please? I can't do it by myself.

3) I went to the gym again this morning. Yay! (after taking a 4 day break - a break which makes me feel even more unhealthy than not going in the first place does..... and I just reread that sentence. I hope it makes sense.) But, I didn't run as far as I was going to originally. And now I'm eating gummi bears? Nice trade-off, right? Less running=more gummi bears. Except it shouldn't.

4) I'm getting out of Provo this weekend (after finishing cleaning checks)! I'm excited. It's not even for any really special reason. In fact, it's more like a personal business trip. But that doesn't stop the excitement! BYU doesn't have enough holidays and I don't think they realize that I need a mental health day about, oh maybe every 15 school days. I'm a full supporter (okay, more like 85%) of the idea that we go to school 4 days a week and have a 3 day weekend. That sounds perfect right now. :)

5) I am craving a coke. Which normally never happens. It's not usually something I crave. Pickles, yes. Cottage cheese, sometimes. Chocolate, fairly often. Coke? Never. But then, I watched this:




And it made me happy! Now I want to go do nice things for other people. And I want a coke.


6) And I have an awesome list of really un-awesome things that need to get done. So, time to focus? Actually it's more like time for staff meeting. And it was my turn to bring treats!

My car was broken into on Monday.

Well, let me rephrase that. I don't leave valuable things in my car, so I didn't lock it (mostly I don't lock it due to the alarm system that likes to go on the fritz and not let me into my car sometimes). And on Monday, someone decided to get in my car, rifle through my things and take what they wanted.

I am slightly stumped. The only thing gone from my car is a tiny coin jar that contains maybe $5 worth of pennies and nickels - because the dimes and quarters go towards whopper jrs at BK. My glove compartment was open, the papers from it were strewn across the seat, along with all the napkins I keep in there for contingencies. And I felt very very grateful that my car was still there. So, I didn't really mind the fact that my funds were slightly diminished.

I didn't call the police because nothing else was missing and nothing was broken and there were no other real signs of foul play. I went to the gym instead, which was where I was headed when I made this discovery.

While at the gym, I realized something big. Right before I went home for Christmas, I made 2 new copies of my car keys because my original was getting slightly bent and was begging to break every time I turned the lock. Guess where I put the original. In the glove compartment. My feelings of gratitude soared because I realized how easily the perpetrator could have taken one of the only valuable things I own.

And yet, amidst all these feelings of gratitude, I feel violated. Someone I don't know and don't trust got in my car. Went through my things. And took something I don't really care about. But now I just feel uncomfortable and insecure. Everywhere I go. School, the gym, the store. At the gym, most of the women put their things in lockers and don't lock them. I just can't do that, even more so now that this happened.

There is a reason why girls like feeling safe. The comfort and security that comes from it can make an feelings of uneasiness disappear in an instant. I just want to feel okay walking around doing things I normally do. Not feel violated trying to live a normal life.

You always think this can never happen to you. But it does. And the aftereffects are always worse than the actual incidence.

Maybe I'm blowing this out of proportion and overreacting. Either way, I still feel uncomfortable every time I walk out to my car.

And apparently I need to pick colors, according to my mother.

Help please?

This is the color palette I like today. But sadly that changes everyday. Why am I so indecisive?

I sat down here with all intents to write something big.
I don't know why I expected that. Maybe because my head has been full of tidbits and tiny pieces of laughter I wanted to share with you.

Every time I open this blog to try and write something, all the smidgeons of ideas disappear. Maybe because the little glimmers of ideas come to me while I am not sitting at a desk.

And maybe that's the way it should be. Another reason why I'm tempted to give this thing up. I'm not so good at "being all inspiring" or whatever people write blogs for. So maybe I'll let you find yours somewhere else.

It's not you - It's me.

So I apologize for all of those who feel like I have ostracized them by making my blog private. I have been debating this for awhile.
- Not just the making private part, but also the need to have one, what I wanted to achieve by having one, how I am lacking in creativity etc.

I think I assumed that if you all got used to not being able to read it, it would be easier for you when I actually did get rid of it. I am sorry.

I guess I learned the hard way that I should just make you all go cold turkey when I do decide to do away with this blog. I guess that's your official warning then. So heads up.

I wish

I wish:

1. That the next 4 months would go by faster.
2. That I could wake up as happy as I did today everyday.
3. That money wasn't important.
4. That school wasn't as... busy.
5. That I was smarter.

Apparently I've gone AWOL

I would like to say that I've been swamped and busy up to my nose in school and work and a social life, but I am not ashamed to say that that would be untrue. I have only been semi-busy. Week one of school was intriguing, to say the least. And I already missed one day of classes. And slept through another. (not my fault. i have a GOOD excuse.)

Now I am sitting on the couch not doing homework? Of course I am.

And I was totally going to write something else here, but I think it would be ill-timed, so I will hold off on that until later.

p.s. "Adam" is a good movie.

p.p.s. Root canals stink

p.p.p.s. I've completely forgotten what I was originally going to write this post about. Maybe I'll remember later...

Break is over.

Christmas was a whirlwind. Lots of trips. Living out of a suitcase for 2 weeks. Flying in airplanes. Lots of driving. Idaho, Utah, New York. Train rides. And pictures. Lots of pictures. And since a picture is worth a thousand words, you get many pictures. And I will save my words for later.

Salt Lake Temple

American Museum of Natural History.

Little Italy

Manhattan BridgeRockefeller Center

On the Train

At the park across the street from my house

Times Square

The Intrepid

Brooklyn Bridge
Quickly! Best drinks ever.

And now school starts. 16 credits, 6 classes. Oh joy oh joy.